Fear

Not only am I angry at my sister, but truthfully, I am very worried for her too. When I got home, I learned that my father had gone to search for Lydie in London. Poor Father, he probably thinks this is so ridiculous. It is my mother that is a real wreck. She is so hysterical we could probably put her in a mental hospital just to get her off of our hands for a while. I know that sounds awful, but her extreme emotions are not helping this situation one bit. Darcy and I both blame ourselves for this, but I blame myself more than I blame him. He had the personal connection, and I didn't. I should have warned everyone (including Lydia) while I could.

Scandal

Lydia eloped with Wickham!!! I am so angry at that girl! Does she know that she is on the verge of ruining the reputation of our entire family if she doesn't marry that man? I knew that Lydia was silly and shallow, but I never suspected that she could be this selfish. Jane received the letter that declared the news, and I can only imagine the awful reaction that my parents must have had. I have to hurry home as quickly as possible, and I must think of a way to explain my haste to the Gardiners. I am so angry and that disgusting Wickham and stupid Lydia!

Georgiana

I was invited by Darcy to meet his sister Georgiana, and I was surprised to find her mannerly and pretty. She reminded me of the intricate dress that the awful Miss Bingley was wearing- light and delicate and beautiful. Miss Bingley tried to criticize my sisters and I almost brought up Wickham. This would have surely torn Georgiana apart, and I am so glad I was able redirect the conversation. Miss Bingley needs a taste of her own medicine in my opinion.

The Housekeeper

Pemberly was most definitely grand, but not in the sense that I expected it to be. It was impressive, but not overly boastful, and though it was a large mansion, it had a warmth to it that I cannot explain. The housekeeper helping with the tour had nothing but good things to say about Darcy as a boy, and I was very surprised to hear this. I wondered who Darcy was fooling- this single housekeeper or me and generally the rest of Hertfordshire? Suddenly Darcy himself appeared, and in his own home he seemed to act as the kind gentleman that the housekeeper had described. I was shocked at this change of character, and I am beginning to question if Mr. Darcy is a more dimensional person than I thought.

The Mansion Tour

I have agreed to tour the Pemberly estate due to the fact that Mr. Darcy is not residing there right now. I will be going with the Gardiners, and I am quite anxious to see what this supposedly lovely house looks like. If Lady Catherine's house is any indication, it is sure to be grand. I wonder if his house reflects his awful personality. I expect it to be overly formal and cold-feeling, just like Darcy himself.

Jane's Support

I revealed the proposal to Jane, and my dear sister had nothing but sympathy for me. I may find her naive and silly at times, but I have come to realize that maybe it is better to judge no one than to have prejudice against everyone. Maybe Jane knows what she is doing after all. I also told Jane about Wickham, and she was so awfully surprised. But knowing Jane, she probably still does not think poorly of him. How my judging mother happened to have such an unbiased thinker for a daughter, I really have no idea.

Lydia

My sister Lydia is so much like my mother. She is easily excited, full of emotion, and always wants to hear the latest gossip. So it was no surprise that when I arrived home, all that silly Lydie could talk about was the militia (she is incredibly boy crazy these days) and all of the pretty dresses and hats she saw. That frivolous girl even suggested that we should all go to follow the militia to the next town over, but of course I refused. What would I possibly say to Mr. Wickham?